Brokeness, Excerpt from A Life Beyond Limits: Overcoming Private Pain

Brokenness, Excerpt from A Life Beyond Limits: Overcoming Private Pain
by Nataki Suggs

I had to get broken down to understand that God is the One
that needs to have complete control over my life. My brokenness
happened through hardship, that is why in the poem I say, “Being
broken is no joke” because you do not become broken by mere
words. You become broken through many difficulties, trials,
and tests. As some people go through these hardships, either
they become further separated from God or they become more
dependent on God and begin to draw closer to Him. Those who
draw closer to Him, begin to realize that He is. They realize that
He is the mender of every mistake, heartache, and bad choice.
They get the understanding that He is the One who can ultimately
bring some clarity to everything they went through in their lives,
whether good or bad.

The brokenness that inspired me to write this poem had me
to a point where all I could say was, “Yes, God! I believe that
You are there. I believe that You are who You say You are. I
believe that You have the power to make me whole as a person.
You have the power to change my mindset so that I won’t define
myself according to my past experiences.” This same brokenness
caused me to become humble in my entire being. It was definitely
a journey. It is still my daily journey to become humble before

Brokeness

God and know that I am not here because of my own strength.
He is there and He is the One that knows me better than I know
myself.

Being broken is no joke

Being broken brings humility
Which is the only road to deliverance

From this flesh which is a total mess…

Being broken takes you to a place

Where you can’t escape
The potter’s hand

That will put the pieces back together again.

Brokenness drove a woman to touch the hem of the
Savior’s garment

Don’t misunderstand
I’m not talking about the money that’s not in your hand…
I’m speaking of being broken before the Father,


The One that you should follow

He’s the potter and we are the clay,

He desires to put us back together
Day by day, He will take you to a place
Where you can escape the mistakes that we make
everyday…

Brokeness

Brokenness produces a new you,

A person who longs to love the Lord
As much as He loves you
A vessel, a servant,
Oh yes being used by the Master of our souls
The only One who can make you whole


And fill every void you have not told

Brokenness will cause you to depend on the One
Who sent His only begotten son…

Copyright ©2007 by Nataki Suggs

The Last Shall Be First,Excerpt from A Life Beyond Limits:Overcoming Private Pain

The Last Shall Be First,Excerpt from A Life Beyond Limits: Overcoming Private Pain
by Nataki Suggs

God promises that the last shall be first, but, as one continues

to be looked over, this promise becomes harder to believe. It is

almost as if you wear a sign on your forehead that says, “Don’t
pick me first!” You may even become wayward in your thinking
and believe that you are not worth being first, which gives way
to you settling for second-rate things. You may also begin to

become envious or jealous of others because they always seem
to get ahead while your situation never seems to change.

The feeling of being last caused me to dream. I dreamt of
having things go my way for a change. I dreamt of being picked
first. I even dreamt of being a writer. However, I did not really
think that I could achieve any of those dreams, so procrastination
and slothfulness became my running partners. Finally I realized
that the dreams I had were not just mere dreams, they were
indicators of my desire to be first, blessed, happy, whole, and
content.

I wanted a real relationship with God. Stumbling upon a
scripture that confirmed these desires caused me to write it down
in poetry. I also wrote this poem to encourage others who have
always felt that they were in second place, or in the shadow of
a sibling, cousin, or even the last choice in a group of friends. I


The Last Shall Be First

wanted each person to know that last is not always a bad place

because it can be said that some ‘save the best for last.’

“But many who [now] are first will be last [then], and many
who [now] are last will be first [then]” (Matthew 19:30 AMP).

You may feel forgotten
You may even feel that it’s too late to escape
From being in second place
But rest assure roles will reverse

And you will be first in line

Delayed but not denied

The chance to advance in this life

Because of the many fights

And the blows that never seem to go


But I will say one day…
This will go away
Just believe, know, have faith in God and the last will be


first

Stay strong; hold on,
The storms will pass you by
And then you will be blessed to see why you made it
through life’s tests

God will straighten the crooked places that you have been
facing
Then you will receive your divine destiny…
These tests of your faith

The Last Shall Be First

Will keep you holding on day by day
He sees all, knows all,
And is the One who will open the door

I know it hurts...

But God promised in His Word that the last shall be first.

Copyright ©2007 by Nataki Suggs